Tuesday, December 22, 2009

the search for satisfaction

Every night, without fail, it comes.

Some nights it's subtle. Others it's incredibly intense. All of a sudden, out of nowhere, I will pause and think about my life. Invariably I think about the relationships in my life. Some time is spent thinking about my friends and family. A considerable amount of time is spent thinking about broken romantic relationships. And the rest is spent wondering what I did wrong.

Why can't I instead think about all the things I have to be thankful for?

I wish I spent more time smiling because of my gratefulness instead of thinking about how confused I feel whenever I see Kristy in person.
I wish I spent more time praying for my friends instead of missing Glorie.

I just wish I was more balanced.