Exhausted

On the way home from bible study, I drove the whole way without any music. The cool thing about driving by yourself is that it kinda forces you to think. I turned the radio off and made 30 mins of alone time with my thoughts in the car.

Most of it cenetered around how I can't stop thinking about someone/thing. It really bothers me. Partly because I feel like I'm just wasting my time. After all, they/it is not thinking about you back so it's kind of like a one way losing battle.

On the other hand, what's the point of loving if you love simply to get something back in return?



Argh. This selfless thing is truly a struggle.